a photographer i cannot have

i've been scoping out photographers lately, as it is one of my next endeavors in this wedding planning process. yesterday, i came across Tanja Lippert Photography, who absolutely BLEW me away! Of course I went ahead and asked for more information. Unfortunately, she is COMPLETELY out of my price range, so instead i will just covet via her blog.

Some images by the beloved:

hum drum

hi people. so i'm still working on where to have the wedding. =) but in the meantime, look at what the oh-so-fabulous amy liao made for me again!!!!


i canNOT get over the ones in the hanbok's! (korean custom outfits) THEY ARE AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

some heart vomit

so i guess i am a little bit stressed out. just a little bit.

for those of you that have never heard me rant and rave about my dear mother, you have been fortunate. i love my mom more than anyone in the whole world, but at the same time, she also makes me madder than does anyone else in the whole world! and so far in the wedding planning process, it has been difficult. my madre is super control-freakish, and her tendencies have made me kick, cry, grunt, sigh, squeel, etc. to the point where today is the last full day of my stay here and we fought this morning. this morning after our fight, i started thinking about the movie "how to lose a guy in 10 days." and my situation feels like when andie anderson is given the power to write about whatever she wants, except that her boss limits her to write about anything WITHIN THE MAGAZINE. mr. zok and my mom keep saying that it's my day, and the decisions are all mine to make, but then mommy dearest only gives me like two options to choose from making me feel like it's not really my decision at all. in the movie, andie anderson leaves the magazine because her principles mean more to her than her job. i can't exactly leave my mother, nor would i. this isn't something i can be that selfish about. it involves too many people.

anyway, after crying to mr. zok and ironically watching an episode of sabrina the teenage witch about the wedding planning process while eating lunch, i think i'm realizing that i'm losing focus in all of this. i want the day to be perfect and happy and sunny and wonderful, but in the end it will be all of those things (well...maybe not sunny) because it will be the beginning of my happily ever after. i'm marrying the guy i love, whom my parents and family love, with the financial support of my parents, which is much more than so many other people in the world. i have a lot to be thankful for.

so i guess it's time to suck it up. whatever happens happens. and in the end, i still get to marry my prince. =)

the shoe report

hi all. so, today is my last full day in california and my last venue visit is today! it has been stressful, to say the least, but if all goes well today i will have a venue set!!!

in the meantime, i thought i'd at least update about SOMETHING! and what better than SHOES?! hahaha. here are some shoes i'm considering with my dress. =)

all captions are below the shoe it goes with!
these babies are so freaking cute. i could eat them. yum!



these are also cute, but might be too dark with my dress?



yum-o!



THESE ARE SO FUN! you guys might think i'm nuts, but i think they are SOOOO FUN! but they don't match my dress at all! i think i might just buy them for myself. =) but mr. zok might yell at me cuz my shoe rack is overflowing right now! hahaha. and he hates snake skin. =)



these are similar to the ones above!



these are cute, but i don't think they will match the shade of purple i want for my bridesmaid dresses!



brown brown brown. whenever i think of brown, i think of last season project runway when heidi calls the crazy girl's brown dress a "sad little brown dress." the way she says it is so freaking funny!



SO CUTE!!!



these are cute, but not very wedding-y. i think i have an aversion to closed-toed dress-up shoes.

what are some good shoe websites? these are from zappo and piperlime. and i think nordstrom too!

stay tuned for venue hopping pictures!

i'm sorry!

hello people! i'm so sorry i have been so bad about updating this! i am currently in california spending time with family and trying to get my venue sorted out! i will make sure to put up pictures/news about all of that when the time comes!

i did want to post right now because i just watched THE CUTEST video on bridesmaids and wanted to share! enjoy!!!!

hilarious!

look at this wedding photobooth! they put a cardboard cutout of the couple for people to take pictures with! SO FUNNY!!

courtesy of john and joseph photography

o.m.g.

look at these cake topper! they're made from the wii "mii" characters! but they are so unnecessarily expensive! $250 for these babies!

pictures from Paul Pape Designs

mr. zok's gag gift

mr. zok finished his summer associate job yesterday, aka his ten-week long interview. needless to say, he is happy to be done! but as a goodbye gift, his firm bought him a wedding planning book. YAY FOR ME! =D

well, instead of studying, i am reading it, and it says, "don't fret! it may not seem like it, but the most difficult part of getting mraried has already been completed. you've found the perfect person. After that, everything is cake!"

i guess that is true. so i will try not to stress out about this whole thing. TRY is the key word ladies and gents.

these are my obsessions...

ever since i have begun wedding planning, i have been a silly goose and singing usher's "confessions" except putting in the word "obsessions" instead. and every time i do it, i chuckle a little to myself. i am such a dork.

anyway, i have recently become quite obsessed with these babies:


not the butterflies, but the lanterns! for whatever reason, i think they are so lovely. so i decided to go on a mad hunt for them and found the following:



i am a particular fan of the small one in the first picture, but i'm not sure if i want to shell out money to get these JUST for my wedding. what would i do with them afterward? i guess sell them?